Hello again my old friend. I'm terribly sorry for abandoning despite my best efforts to stay. But I'm a selfish person and often do many selfish things. For the past month I have struggled with almost everything. Life is not always what you think it will be and my recent realization of that has lead me to this state that I am currently in. I spent so long daydreaming about a life I was not living and for some reason it helped me. I was able to escape to this world where life was good but it wasn't really my life at all. And once I had snapped back to reality and struggled to return to this life in my head did I realize that my life would never be anywhere near as wonderful as I had dreamed.
Never would I be able to call a wonderful apartment overlooking the Sydney Harbor my home.
Never would I be able to say that my day job is a being a successful and talented actress.
Never would I be able to say that my boyfriend was an international rock star.
Never would I be able to say that I was beautiful.
And never would I be able to say that I was happy.
The life I truly lead is honestly nothing. I have nothing to say for my life, nothing to brag about and nothing to admire over. And that's why I feel the way I do right now.
And I'm sure you're reading this asking "well then do something about it?" and yes, you're right, I will never get anywhere close to living this dream life if all I do is sit around my house in my underwear eating chocolate all day. So I put it to myself right here and now that from now on I will try. I will try to become the person I dream of, whose life I envy and whose happiness I so desperately need.
But where do I even start?
Megan x
Image credit not mine
Never would I be able to call a wonderful apartment overlooking the Sydney Harbor my home.
Never would I be able to say that my day job is a being a successful and talented actress.
Never would I be able to say that my boyfriend was an international rock star.
Never would I be able to say that I was beautiful.
And never would I be able to say that I was happy.
The life I truly lead is honestly nothing. I have nothing to say for my life, nothing to brag about and nothing to admire over. And that's why I feel the way I do right now.
And I'm sure you're reading this asking "well then do something about it?" and yes, you're right, I will never get anywhere close to living this dream life if all I do is sit around my house in my underwear eating chocolate all day. So I put it to myself right here and now that from now on I will try. I will try to become the person I dream of, whose life I envy and whose happiness I so desperately need.
But where do I even start?
Megan x
Image credit not mine